He's still working on me.....

As I thought about what to write in my first blog post, I was reminded of the song I often sang as a child....

"He's still working on me,

To make me what I need to be." 

Then it goes on to say....

"I'll be better just according to his plan,

Fashioned by the Master's loving hands."

Over the past few weeks, I have been learning a lesson often taught but rarely understood. A lesson that comes straight from the book of Isaiah, chapter 55. His thoughts are not my thoughts. While I am struggling to see past the hurt and despair of my current days, He smiles as he looks upon something amazing he has planned for me. His ways are higher than mine, and I must accept that he knows what is best for me. I know that through the mess, He makes me stronger. You see, that gives me hope, because He loves me enough to be dissatisfied with me staying the way I am. He wants me to be stronger and brighter as a light for him.

"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland." Isaiah 43:18-19

He is doing a new thing in me, and I will find ways to be thankful for it. I have asked myself so many times recently, "Is he really enough?" With each day that passes, I become more confident in saying, "Yes, he alone is enough." If you would have asked me this 3 months ago I would have said,"Yes, of course he is everything to me," but in reality he only had part of me. It is only when you feel like everything you have known has been stripped away from you when you learn what it really means to make him enough.

We sang these lyrics at True Spin last night and their meaning echoes in my soul....

"Give me faith to trust what you say

That you're good and your love is great

I'm broken inside, I give you my life.

I may be weak

But your spirits strong in me

My flesh may fail

My God You never will."

These words will continue to be my prayer.