You steady my heart.

"O God, You are my God,

earnestly I seek You;

my soul thirsts for You,

my body longs for you,

in a dry and weary land 

where there is no water. "

Psalm 63:1

Truth being told, there are times in life where comfort seems no where to be found. Along this journey, I am often left wondering if there is any water for my thirsty soul to drink. I seem to walk in circles looking and searching for something.....anything...that will give me rest. Over the past week, I find myself longing for my quiet time each night, needing those intimate moments with the only one who fully understands the quiet whispers deep within me. Just as David earnestly sought after God and longed for him to quench his thirst, I must find refuge in the arms of Jesus. He has promised me rest. We take for granted this rest He provides for weary souls when we feel like our lives are going just perfectly, but it is when we truly discover that He is the only constant in this life that we are thankful for the arms he always has open.

So many times God uses song lyrics to speak to my soul, to give me reassurance that He is still by my side, holding me up when I am too weak to do so myself. A few nights ago, I listened to a song on YouTube called "You Steady My Heart" by Kari Jobe, and I was left staring at the screen wondering how she could have written the song for anyone but me. The song will not be released until her new album comes out in January, and the lyrics are not posted on any websites yet, so I had to listen to it several times and copy the words down myself. It goes something like this:

Wish it could be easy...

Why is life so messy?

Why is pain a part of us?

There are days I feel like, 

Nothing ever goes right,

Sometimes it just hurts so much.

But you're here...you're real.

I know I can trust you...

Even when it hurts,

Even when it's hard,

Even when it all just falls apart.

I will run to you cause I know that you are,

Lover of my soul,

Healer of my scars.

You steady my heart.

I'm not gonna worry.

I know that you've got me,

Right inside the palm of Your hand.

Each and every moment, 

What's good and what gets broken,

happens just the way you plan.

You are here, You are real.

I will run to you and find refuge in your arms.

I will sing to you because of everything you are.

I have had a hard time accepting that every moment in my life happens the way He plans it to. Not just the good but also the parts that are broken. He especially likes those parts because he gets to make the mess into something beautiful that brings Him glory. When I am broken inside, and when everything in and around me has fallen apart, He is still the lover of my soul and the one who will heal my scars. Him alone. His promises will always remain true.

I hope it blesses you as it did me. 

Prayers and love until next time.