Just a little letter to the King.

You know me. You made me who I am, the deepest and inmost parts of me. The things that set me apart from all of the others are the very things you ingrained in me. You see my greatest potential even at the moments where I see nothing but weakness and failure. My flaws reveal your strengths. When I am down, You hold me tight inside the palm of Your hand. There are so many things that You have given me...and it hurts my heart to know how often I take those things for granted. As I feel lonely and homesick being four hours away from my family, You remind me that there are so many men and women fighting for my freedom so that I may still proclaim Your name freely. Praise the Lord for only being four hours away from home. You have given me life. You care enough about me to search me and find the parts of me that need Your work and care.One day soon, I will see Your face. When I think of that day, I cannot imagine doing anything but falling flat on my face and offering You my tears of thanks. I lay my burdens down at your feet. I pray that not only will you reveal the path you have for me, but also that you will help me to be accepting towards that plan. I know that so many times I pray for Your will, but once you show me what it is, I decide I don't want it anymore. I desire for that never to be the case. Your plans are so much greater and higher. You are the one who has given me life...a beautiful one at that. When I feel as though I am not good enough, you whisper in my ear "I knit you together in your mother's womb. I have chosen you, and I am going to use you, just as I created you. You are made in my image, and I have made you righteous." What a beautiful story you have written for my life, Lord. Although some chapters are painful to hear, I know the ending, and it gives no reason to  have anything besides hope for the future. You are my everything, Jesus. At this very moment, You are shaping my life. Open my eyes to that. Break me apart so that I may become all that I need to be in You. Open the doors of opportunity for me to be a selfless servant of You. What wondrous love you have given me.....it has to be shared!